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» Saturday, February 02, 2008
Dear all,
This page or blog won't be use anymore.
Good bye!
Take care all!!
_LOVE, Dee_
» Saturday, November 10, 2007
Dear friends,
I know... its been long right? Well, things are different now. Life isn't free now.
Anyway, i dedicate this video to HUDA!!
enjoy!!!
» Sunday, July 15, 2007
Apakah sebenarnya Terbuku dikalbumu Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku Tak bisa kurungkainya Rahsia yang kau pendam itu
Aku hanya menduga Tidak mampu merasa Sebenar-benar perasaanmu
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan Untuk dewasakan ku Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan Untuk dewasakanku Hanya bisa ditangguing oleh hati ibu
Namun kupercaya Takkan terlerai kasih Ikatan ini takkan putus
Telah kau telan lara Dan terima segala Dugaan dan badai yang melanda...Duhai ibu
Mum, i will alwasy pray for you... you know i need you..l Please be strong through the operation. i know you will... i know you are scared, i am more scared than you are. I know we can't run away from god wills... but please promise me to be strong...
Ya allah, kau lah maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang, Kau lah maha pengampun, Kau lah sahaja yang dapat aku pinta untuk pelindungan....
Ya allah, Kau kuatkan dan sembuhkan lah ibu ku Hanya kau sahaja yang memahami isi hati seorang anak tunggal yang ibu nya dalam keadaan sakit. Kau juga sahaja tahu penderitaan yang ibu ku lalui. Kau kurang kan lah deritaan nya, ya Allah. Kuatkan lah ibu Ku.... Semoga operation yang dilalui nya hari ini akan berjalan dgn lancar dan sempurna.
Ya Allah, Kau panjangkan lah umur kedua ibu bapa ku....
Amin.....
* i know you suffer... please, promise me be strong!! <3 you mum...
» Sunday, May 27, 2007
Things would never be the same again. Yes – I know you if I need you, you will always be there for me. But see it this way; it would not be the same anymore. I told you, calls will be fewer from you and guess what – true enough. I don’t blame you. I am guessing that you are too busy handling and juggling those juggling balls that comes surprise you at your doorstep. Indirectly, I am telling you that you can also expect lesser calls from me. Nope I don’t want to interfere with your juggling balls. I hate those juggling balls – remember? I guess these juggling balls will be part of your life forever. Keep practicing ya… It keeps entertaining you rite?
I understand my friend that you are caught in the middle. And it feels shit right? Not to worry – I wouldn’t want to bother you then. I tried to reach you last few nights but I guess to busy juggling. I was crying and I could not get you. I was hoping that you could listen to my sorrows. Nope – after all those miss calls, it remains as miss calls in your HP.
Thank you for showing and highlighting to me that I am just a place for you to step on / play with while your juggling ball was missing.
Those juggling balls that you ever lose before came back... i am guessing... its for good this time (good luck)
» Sunday, April 22, 2007
wahai teman-teman kuzz...
senyap nye kamu semua kebelakangan nie? busy noh ke nyah?
Lots of tear shed actually last week, banyak terkonang-konang la katekan. Orang yang aku ingatkan tak mungkin wujud balik dalam hidup aku tiba-tiba kembali, mengimbas kembali sejarah. hahaha... mcm faham je aku.
Dulu aku tak pernah percaya atas dasar " orang yang kite sayang tinggal kan kite dan akan kembali kepada kite jika memang die tu untuk kite".. merepek kan... dulu tinggal kan tak kan die ada hati nak balik?
Aku teringat pat satu member aku nie.. die cite tentang "LOVE" story die pat aku. Mase tu kite ramai2 saje je lepak pat swensen... tiba-tiba si "Z" nie dgn segan sipu nye bukak nulut and blurt out the big news... " si 'erm...erm' tu dah contact balik tau dgn aku... and kite dah back together and hopefully this time round for good"...
"erm..erm...?? sape lak tu...? must be her ex BF yang die sayang sangat tu la . Alhamduillah..."
addition to that conversation, we continue with a hot topic... " if he meant for you, he for sure come back to you"
Now aku tanya korang, betul ke?? nak cakap aku tak percaya dengan takdir, tak lah. tapi aku pasrah when once a upon the time dulu adalah hamba Allah nie just walk out of my life just like that. The best part is he got himself a family of his own already.
Now flash back to my conversation with my friends, as for my case, it is so impossible that my 'history guy' would ever come back to my life... die dah ade anak, isteri and one more anak... oH nO... hahahaha... so i told them... i guess he was not meant for me after all.
HOWEVER, this is the best part, si baung tu came back... jeng jeng jeng... wat the hell rite?? Yupz.. telling me all his problems and being his listening ears. I dun even know why he is coming back.
Yes... ramai yang advise aku suruh aku jauh kan diri aku dgn diri. somethings just can not help it u know... i am trying, trust me. To tell the truth, i miss him so much. But i am also aware of the restriction that i should follow... For now, i have to let him go.. FOR GOOD!
Dah lah, lupekan cite sedih, Good luck to all who are involve in "SALAMALAS" a production organise by Ngee Ann Poly Malay Cultural club, 7.30pm at Ngee Ann Convention Centre.
To mOi Cuzzins, 12 May jangan tak jadi lak, jadi mesti jadi nye .....
* why after all these years?*
» Thursday, April 12, 2007
Hey there kengkawanz..
So sorry for late update.
Firstly, i would like to say thank Q all those wishes let me name some:
1. Nadzirah (advance wish wic 1 mth b4 my actual birthday) 2. Kai (tina) & Yana -who tot that my birthday is on 8 march but they did call me on actual birthday 3. Icec troopz - wonderful celebration i had with them. Thank Q Joyce, Linda, May, Serene, and the three interns. :ps:thank sheila for the 50% of in Marrakesh. 4. Mak Anjang, Cik, Aisha n Abg Hairi - thank for the TOP , the lovely rantai n $$. hehehe... 5. Mak Misah & Kak Lin - Full-filling lunch at Sakura Int. Buffet!! and the GUESS perfume. 6. TO BEST OF ALL : ADIRATNA!!!! - for the wonderful chalet-cum-camp plus anniversary celebration for all of us. 7. Phone call from BIRI-BIRI n TURTLE wishing happy birthday. and DUCK who sms me!! thank Q DUCK. *happy belated birthday*[addition to this - thank Q fana n yaty for the HUGS!!! - in the room opps....] 8. To those SMSes from: kak yani(cuz), nurul(cuz), i can't recall now.. - mind so blank 9. wish from nenek - a long wish from her and extra lines saying that to find JODOH. not to forget, yang baik-baik punya k... hahahhaha 10.Special thanks to PNAD, NURUL, ZIHA and ZANA. sorry i have to leave early for that nite coz attending another bdae celebration with family. i will make it up with you gals very soon. 11. Mak usu n Pak usu - thank u for the Seafood dinner. 12.BIG BIG THANK YOU to my parents - they got me a PSP this year!! LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!
Alhamduillah... just to share, i think the best birthday gift i got this 21st birthday is a Letter of Confirmation from Cartus(the compnay i am in now). belum sampai 1 mth keje pat sini, dah dapat confirmation. Alhamduillah!! i tink berkat doa my mum!!
my birthday celebration is not an end yet. i am going out with Fariha n tini this saturday!! yeah!!
Thank Q so much everyone! Anyway, chalet with Adiratna peepz was great! Here's the link to the pix. check it outs. (oppss... get the password from me)
Addition, i would to wish someone by the named Md Ash'ary on his 21st birthday. Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki mu...
» Monday, March 26, 2007
birthday bashed!
hey peepz..
Ok, i will make this fast. What the hell dee? Updating your blog in office? Please Lah Dee!! hahahha..
Sorry if i am missing anyone else... just can not remember now in office...
HAHA... my hari 'TUA' also coming.
Anyway, life getting better for me, Alhamduillah. But just worried for both my parents. I think my dad still having those ' sakit tekak' and mum just got sick yesterday due to jaga my dad while he was down with fever. AaaWwww... cute right? hahhaha Anyway, mum n dad, hope both of you get better and please do not spread the "BUGS" to me... i wanna go work!! hehhehe... LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU!!
To my dearest QME peepz: Fariha, Tini, Remy, Kamal,Shafikah and Hayati. Can wait to meet all of you this saturday. Must enjoy ourselves. Been so long we didn't catch up with each other.
